Songs for the album

1. Ignite a Million Suns - A love ballad.
2. Unemployed - A song about the harshness of being jobless. The self esteem toll and emotional toll.
3. Expectations - Song about Father issues.

Language Discrimnation

I find it retarded that Americans find it amusing imitating a foreigner's accent. Mocking them. How many languages does the average white person speak? Most likely 1. Also, no where else do native speakers mock Americans for their shitty accents. When a white person says, "Nee How Mah." It sounds terrible and ridiculous to me. But we just grin and say "good job." Its called being courteous. Anyways, this just goes to show how ignorant some of the white population is.

GTR

Driving the beast has been so intense. The acceleration, the pull.. its simply amazing. This car belongs to a rich kid. Today, he withdrew $70k. $40k for his friend, and $30k to upgrade/customize his car. Its plain ridiculous. With that amount of money, I could buy another car. The same with Jordan's phone. Its a Vertu and worth reported of amost $20k. I could buy yet another car.

Anyways, Chinese New Year has been fun and stressful. It was good to see everyone, including my 奶奶 who's out of the hospital now. Amy came over, and also met another girl named Rachel. The bad was that I gave up my bed and slept in the garage on an air mattress for 3 nights. Normally, this would be ok, but since a lot of people are over, I get woken up by people heading in and out. Also, when I wake up, I can't take my ritualistic poop first thing in the morning. The bathroom's taken up by Christine and Mary from the moment I wake up to when we head out the door. I can't even poo straight anymore. I need my schedule! Then on Saturday (2/5) our extended family was supposed to eat China Garden at 11:00am. But because everyone was late, we got there at 11:45 and didn't get a seat till 12:45. I was so cranky because I was hungry and didn't sleep well. I felt bad that I took my frustration out on Mom. But in my defense, EVERYONE knew about the lunch plans. When to meet and where to meet. There should have been no excuse for anyone to be late. Thanks to them, I was starving for 4 hours waiting for people to show up. And when the finally did, we had to wait longer because we hit the lunch hour rush. It all could have gone smoothly if people (婆婆 and 小舅舅's family) would freakin' keep their word and show up on time.

On another note, apparently Golriz and 二伯伯's family think I'm sad and/or depressed. I have to say I AM sad (though not depressed). Why? Because I haven't hung out with anyone. I don't even bother making plans to hang out because I don't know if I have to leave last minute to go taxi people. Also, its discourage to be constantly rejected by employers. At home, I have to see the constant worry and disappointment on my Dad's face when he looks at me. Who wouldn't be sad at this point. I can only pray that I can find a job quickly.

Altær

I just thought of an awesome name for a band (or my future band.) Altær.
Altar - as in a place of sacrifice.
Alter - as in a state of change.

I think these two words embody two aspects of Christian life and theology.

No PEDO

I love kids. I don't know what it is about me, but kids love me too. Like when LTF had a thanksgiving concert at another chinese church. The little girls (3-7 of age) there were all over me. I think its my pheromones :p

For Christmas dinner this year, my parents had a couple families from church come over for dinner. Two adorable sisters 6 and 7, were over and played on the elliptical for an hour. Each of them stood on one pedal and pulled their lever vigorously. It was so cute. Afterward, when I broke out the game cube, they had fun just watching me play with some other kids (boys). They were all rooting for me and helped me pick my players and told me who to fight against. When I won, and wanted to give them a 'high-five,' they headbutted my hand instead. They're too funny!

At the end, they didn't want to leave me and was asking if they'd see me at church the next day. I miss them already!